Monday, November 28, 2005
Back. oh. i am back to my bloggie le. so long never update and i sure have lots to reflect! this will DEFINITELY be a very long post!
hmmm that day was chatting with lionheart. haa, gonna tret me go k?! hehe. lalala~ thats great, going go sing again lo.
aiya, council retreat camp just ended two days ago and i nearly died from it. need to rush to sp for lectures then go back greenview for camp. book in and out de. made me so messy.
day one was pretty fine. i got alot of heavy stuffs to carry. that was like one bag for my clothes and another big bag for my books. and it is like 8 books one a4 size file and an a3 folio. -_-
did my introduction to the council and get on with the programmes. then realised there were too many problems in council and all the seniors *in my batch* were like discussing about how we should approach mtt. the aim is to let him know how we feel, but the challenge was not to challenge his authority.
i mean we want to help him but dont want to hurt or trouble him. 3sa and me definitely had a big headache and in the process, we had a little 'quarrel' *nothing too serious la* on how and what to do! long discussion before andy take the lead to the 'reflection' session with him.
well, i am sure some thing will be done, and thats back to BASIC.
day two i book out from camp iat 6am! mummy sent me to the bus stop and i hurt my leg on the journey. -_- slept on the train and miss my stop. backtrack. *sianx 1/2* have to had desk critique le. i cannot drag it on.
well it started off with camp day one, befor i report for camp, i met edmund and he had also given comments on my concepts too. guess they were not too strong and they were only treatments, not really considered as concepts. and worst of all he gave me lots of stress. look at this lo>>>
"yilong, you are a good designer, and you understand we do expect more from you. hmmm, i am sure by lunch time you can give me something better and strong, yea? get back to me asap alright."
"err, orhh. yahh. thanks ed..."
oh well, oh well. in the end, i ran away, dont dare to see him and go straight to greenview. thats why i prepared to go back to school on day two. this trouble is running in me all day long in camp and i tried very hard to forget it and concentrade on something else. i worked doubly hard the previous night after lights off just to come up with new concepts. haha, in the end i fell asleep but luckily i had done everything!
when for desk critique again. more stress added, and look>>>
"well, you now have something stronger and firm, work hard on the zoning and programming now! remember your study models too!"
"err, orhh. yahh. thanks ed..."
-_-" soon was farewell night. by then i was like so sad, because i am reminded of the time when it was my farewell. the atmosphere was high, but my feelings were low. and gave anne the pressies and sure she love it yea?? a post card filled with my sincere appreciation for my very good buddy, benneth and rayson too. afterall, anne was my very close classmate in sec 1 and 2, together with benneth from one class before us, were the one i played with since then till now and rayson made a good friend and team player too in council and sec 3 and 4 as classmates together with benneth! =]
back to school and it was danny ho's farewell. oh. he is leaving for a better future. i hope so... aiya, my feeling defeated me again and i teared again, in another farewell. i mean, in this path when i were a councillor, mtt was not around and danny ho was my pillar of support. he did gave me and 3sa alot of space and sometimes, i feel that we overwrite him too much. think we owe him too much. but really thank him too.
day three was kayaking! wow. i was definitely burnt. but a great day thought. had fun and enjoyed it.too tired and when i got home, still need to do study model. i will soon die from all this and the stress on me.
as i expected. i knew i cannot complete it. and edmund, maybe was too disappointed, again. i mean elaine was not around and she knows me well. i need her to be around for me but she is in a long mc break. i wonder what happened to her but i believe she is seriously sick, otherwise she would not leave us alone to run this race. elaine! get well soon and i need you back!
fiona was like asking me what camp i went to. does a secondary school camp matters too much then my projects and all this could lead me to my second C or even first D, E or F in my progress report. oh, i question myself too.
i think going back for council to see the growth and help out is very important but perhaps that does not mean that i can neglect my work. but everything clashes and it all piles up together above me. the loads are too heavy for me to bring across the river. i really dont know what to do. but i know its because of camp i did not meet the expectations of me, need not even mention about the expectations i set for myself. hey bloggie, dont you get it? i am a perfectionist, but now i lost my will to move on the pace i set for myself. i am very depressed now and soon i will devastate. peiting says she want to quit. that rings something in me too.
lets get on with life for now and lets say something else...
i pray and pray. pray for a better life and other's happiness too. i will wave goodbye to some happiness to bring up yours instead. in this process i will learn to bear everything as it is something i have to pay. on my part things are starting to change and i feel it already. at least i feel better.
lose happiness does not equals to sadness.
err, it is terribly when i walk the way we used to walk. ohh. i am falling too much, very much.
hmmm, i hope you are happi ok. dont always feel so bad and pessimistic. dont slit yourself le. you are not only hurting yourself, but people around you feel the pain on your wrist too! just know that when you cry, i am willing to be around, even i cannot make you feel better, i will give you all my support. everybody will always be ready for you. you DONT run the race alone! you will be happi from now. i believe.
another friend i know was badly hurt too la. hmm, i dont know how to console people lehx.
today! i went to marcus house house to help him with work. haha. well, sick, not me, its him. oh, get well soon yea! its not a good time to fall sick now lehx!
and its the grand opening ceremony of the 23th Sea Games! well, i am very very affected by this. because it will remind me that i quitted ssa. my greatest regret. i lost. everything. never able to make it for sea games le. thats why in school i am trying so hard to join swimming team, hoping someday i can go back to club again. but, i dont know la. mother told me go waterpolo better. but i still prefer competitive swimming. hmmm, am i too selective? should i miss out the chance on waterpolo? aiya, i dont know la!
well, albert kor is at manila now! for sea games! and representing Singapore in archery! wow wow! i aspire to be like him. well, swimming, anyway, havent run the race i already lost. =[
i think i am suffering too much. i may just fall anytime when i cannot take it anymore. but will you be there to be a support...
at least something pleased me today lo. i am not forgotten =]** thous left @ 1:15:00 AM **
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Friday, November 18, 2005Pissed. 你带我上天堂，又推我下去。
我拥抱着遗憾，坠落在天际。
today is a very bad day. recently is not too good too. i think too much today! recalled soooooooooo many stuffs. thats not good. just name it one by one.
well, i lost my phone and i eventually phoned the police and sort of created a mess out of it because of a suspicious fellow. hmptf. that is bad. too bad. the idot is really an idot. she know she is guilty but i do anything when the stuff is not found on her. but of course there are other parts to it that cause more things to be suspicious.
it was terrible. not losing the phone, but the things inside. as for the numbers, not to worry, i got a backup and important ones, i definitely memorised it! well, my videos, recordings and messages. and of course the important pictures. pictures with anne, chan, ws and cousins. *boohoo* shit that person who took it! i curse the family -----.
then next, the problem is me. i was terribly sick that day. well. nvm. fine. i am better now. and today i was so afraid i could not walk properly as i was too tired and feel like fainting le. shucks. *boohoo* but again, i am fine le.
then was the singing audition. well, i flunked my second line. but after that, my friends say i did well. alright. i dunno. but i am disappointed with my performance. i wonder if i really can get in to the finals. possibility of 40% only. but my friends told me there is a high chance. well, i dont know. i never see/hear other contestants sing so i dont know where i stand.
but i hopr i get to the finals, to i can perform on sp's open house and i can sing for people who came and you, the o levels takers: ay, ws..., will be able to see too! hooray! ermmm, i think i think too much le horr. hehe. but i still think i sang better in rehearsal. -_- haiya...
then it was the design club stuff. too terrible. i say it another day. so pissed off.
someboday pissed me off too. idot shitt!
well. last day of o levels. jia you le ay, ws! all the best!** thous left @ 10:46:00 AM **
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Monday, November 14, 2005Heh.
Your Heart Is Green
Love completes you, but that doesn't mean you seek it out.
When love comes your way, you integrate it peacefully into the rest of you life.
Your flirting style: Laid back
Your lucky first date: Walking around aimlessly and talking
Your dream lover: Is both enthusiastic and calm
What you bring to relationships: Balance
err.. i did this. but.. hmm. nvm.
hmmm, yesterday was my very very bad day. i will update about it once i reach home. now i am in studio -_-. but b4 i go home, i will go temple first. haha. remove all the bad luck mann! and pray for all the exam-taker. haha.** thous left @ 12:45:00 PM **
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Saturday, November 12, 2005Suffer. oh well. today after submission me and classmates when to watch the exorcism of emily rose. interesting story line but not scary at all. after that went around then went to ah ma house. its her bufday party and yah.
i think there is really something wrong in my body. past 2 day i didnt sleep much, like 2 hours plus only, and i am have servere headache. no i am still having the pain in my brains. with one more addition, i feel like vomitting but i cant! its so uneasy and i feel so sick. i dont know whats happening and i cannot do anything. i am like soooo weak and feel like i am suffering. too difficult to live on. it is all killing me now! argh!
this is terrible. i am dying. i am exhuasted and my body has no strength. i cannot afford to fall sick at all! oh no!!!
it will soon be over and all. you need to take great care and rest well. have positive thinkings and stay happi please! you support to push you move on is endless. jia you!
uaaahhh, i cannot stand it. it is so terrible. i feel like killing myself le! ahhh! shucks.** thous left @ 12:40:00 AM **
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Thursday, November 10, 2005Numb. oh. today in train, when on the journey to the west, i met kion. haa. then i started to listen to songs because i cant fall asleep anymore. lol. i almost breakdown in the train.
after school there is theresa around to fill up my time. did many things. and till now i came home, it was raining heavily and i fell asleep in my sofa just now. so now like have to do homework!
the busy life has came back to me and i can only agree to it. and in this pact, it says that it will not let me off till feb. -_-" i am still learning to adapt. but i seem to be falling apart more each day. althought i may have failed and fell so much, but at least i have tried to pull myself together.
when so many work are around and i am facing too much pressure, i cant seem to concentrate. i can only comfort myself but encouraging myself. of course with some people's presence will be best. thanks ws, 3sa, ay, cfk and tyw.
argh! my head is killing me again. i have to redirect the pain! *pinch here and there* when i look at my hand, it reminds me of the pain that i cut. my legs gets numb easily. i think maybe my body is failing me le. maybe its the hint she give me, to be ready.
oh. good luck to ws and ay. jia you for the exams!!!
解开我最深里的等待，星星坠落，风在吹动。
相信我不便的珍惜，在多苦痛也不散躲。** thous left @ 12:32:00 AM **
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Wednesday, November 09, 2005See. 12.14am
hmmm, see this. let me tell you about my '3sa' day, yea. here it goes...
3sa 3sa 3sa 3sa. =] 3sa 3sa 3sa 3sa '3sa'. 3sa 3sa!!! 3sa 3sa 3sa 3sa 3sa 3sa -_-" 3sa 3sa 3sa 3sa *3sa 3sa* 3sa 3sa 3sa, 3sa. 3sa 3sa 3sa 3sa ^^ 3sa 3sa 3sa. 3sa 3sa 3sa 3sa, 3sa 3sa 3sa 3sa. 3sa 3sa 3sa =] 3sa 3sa 3sa 3sa 3sa. 3sa, 3sa 3sa 3sa ,3sa 3sa 3sa~ 3sa 3sa 3sa 3sa.
yea. so that's how my 3sa day went.** thous left @ 12:13:00 AM **
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Tuesday, November 08, 2005She. *whatever i typed here means no offence to anyone. i am just writing what is inside me. if any part of the content disturb you emotions at anytime, please press that little X button at the top right side corner.*
oh my god. my head hurts terribly today. very very painful. i just feels like i am breaking.
well, perhaps it is due to my wisdom tooth, i think it is growing, therefore the pain. and another factor might be i am facing TOO MUCH STRESS WITH MY PROJECTS.
initially i thought i am on track and on time and everyone is doing stuff at the same speed, good timing. but who knows, we may seem to be behind time now. because today there is two lecture, then so may stuffs are taught at one go. then it is all related to my project and whatever paperwork that is expected of us. so with so many new things adding to my load today, i think i will suffer on friday's pin-up. just too much.
next is that my eyes are a little swollen. maybe because of sunday la. then my eyes perhaps a little infected. -_-" well. oh well.
was watching teevee. stairways to heaven. well. i triggers some thoughts in me. made me now super duper sad. love makes one willing to sacrifies for the other one, even if it means to end his life. how noble, yea. hmmm, i dont know if i have the courage to do that. it depends who is that personthat worth me dying for. *heheserious alright!* i suddenly thought of jin jin and the accident. well, two years have past but the feeling of pain, sad and lost are still fresh in me.
i kept on remembering that i am supposed to go home with her, but due to that stupid meeting, or perhaps stupid me suddenly cannot go with her, so... till now i still think if i went with her, she would not pay her life. maybe it would be me. but i thought it through, also for years le, if what happened really can be authored, i would rather it be me. firm 'yes' i say. they are just too unfair to her. i am sure her life will be much more beautiful than me.
there are times i wish she can take me with her. to her place now, with no fears at all. a place where my soul will forever be at peace. but she never give me a reply. now i see her in my dreams again, sometimes i have no face to see her as i felt sorry and some other stuff. but i will always tell her to be happi, and that she must find me or let me find her. but she cannot be like before. i dont know why.
till now, i still dont know her whereabouts. *fyi* she no longer stays in yishun. oh, where is her?
aiya. skip this le la. i feel terribly and lousy now. jerk you, yilong.
thank you so much till now. i really thank you soooo much. you made my life more colourful. i will still stand strong and persist. do well for your studies now! all the best and will always be behind you! jia you!
alright, i better get back to my work le.** thous left @ 11:25:00 PM **
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Monday, November 07, 2005描述。 我的天啊。目前在课室里，感觉好累，有些头晕目眩。好疼哦。昨晚好累，所以没来写日记。如今就想要把闷在心坎里的想法都抛出来。
我快昏了。功课的压力时一天比一天还大。很担心我不能表现出自己的最佳。或许是‘自我要求高’的念头在又作恶。而且，这次是两个功课，在同一时间进行。有些觉得自己好渺小、好脆弱哦。
人最大的敌人，就是命运。就因为有了民运，才制造出虚幻。人就因为对抗不了命运，所以才在虚幻里找寻自己所要的‘真东西’。我也从不例外。面对心灵的创伤，只能活在拥有短短的记忆里，摸索在虚幻的世界了。你不从说过你相信世上没一辈子的事了吗？或许就当如此。我也有所领悟。
想想看，我们都很悲哀。或许如果我们没有了命运，没有了判断能力，没有了感觉或没有了情，就只过每一天该过的日子，虽说我们能快乐无比，但那不是和失去活下来的意思没两样？但为了所存有的意思而活下来，就得面对人生某种过程的许多挑战，难道我们不悲哀吗? 还不是被命运玩弄。
我真的崩溃了。情是存在，但不会永远坚持。你不同意吗？哲人也曾说过，‘爱只出现在几个瞬间罢了。就因为它不久逗留，就该更加珍惜它的存在。’
我也在摸索，不知自己是生活在哪个端点。就有你存在和环绕着，我以心满意足了。昨天或许是我最难过的一天，但我也不希望每天都这么过，相信你也不希望。
我还是得向命运低头，感谢你出现到我的生命里，从此你我也不陌生。没错，我是一天一天，越陷越深，而你也没准备。我也还以为你避开了我，不想见我。希望不是，对吗？你我都没盼望到这种下场。为了避免伤害，就选择了结束。但留下的痕迹仍然存在。我恳求你别冷落我。在问自己，你我是否能成为最好的朋友？你知道我会环绕在你之间，这一切都是关心。你我还能聚在一起吗，一起外出吗，一起看电影吗，一起唱歌吗，一起坚持着吗？请别拒绝我，我要继续存在你生命中，好吗？万事都和我分享好吗，好朋友？继续保持喜欢好吗？
对不起如果你把我想要表达的意思看翻了。
我的爱意还在。我的灵魂也还在。在何时，如永远又再可信的话，我都会在。
你别担心我的适应能力。我忙得不得了，有堆积如山的功课陪着我。我不会想。
你在考试，我会为你加油打气的。你万事都会顺利哦！我挺你。がんばって。
天啊，我还头晕目眩。等一下，五点下课，我就去找怡文了。哈哈。** thous left @ 12:45:00 PM **
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Sunday, November 06, 2005Nothing. 6.54pm
phew. i found something for myself to do. well, a new skin for this bloggie here.
so i will just blog what i want to say, over here later. i hope we are still the same.
12.47pm
oh dear. i just finish read my very 1st easyjournal and jin's easyjournal. phew~ take a look back now, realised that everything is so funny in the past. yes, we have grown up le. alot.
today it the worst day. i wanted to find something to do so i will not trigger anything in my brain. but guess what. my dearest 4 friends all are unable to pei me lo. 1st time nehx. 3sa got to pei mummy to stay at home because her daddy not at home today, annice got to work on a pathetic sunday, chan got to look after home as no body is at home *i wonder where is her sister then* and anne, i supposed she needs to prepare for tomorrow. wow. nevermind lo. maybe if i really nothing to do, i will go visit annice or i will be in a long long phone chat with theresa.
worst of all is that my brother and sisters, all the mr and miss and mrs TANs, had gone to genting le!!! *hmptf* aiya, actually i wanted to go de lo, but monday and tuesday got lecture. i am left here lo. they better get me some pressies. anyway i will call them when they reached at 2 plus. i am only left with my 2 pathetic sisters at home, one onlyknow to go out and play, and the other one only know how to watch teevee. *boohoo*
well, i am lost. for days i am expression-less. but yes, perhaps only 3sa understand me most. she can guess my feelings, very accurately, but i never tell her anything. hehe. i practice self deceiving now. i just pray for this to change back now. anyway i have no idea how you change so fast too. oh please.
now i only know how to look into the screen and find work for myself to do. but lecture slides are not updated and i cannot do work! so i am so free lo. and when you are free, what happens...
haa. glad that melissa, vannesa and jonathan are coming back to singapore. i wonder if they will stay till chinese new year? but i am pleased to learnt that jonathan finially had started form 1. hope the other two are doing fine.
and its the council retreat camp again. yes, i will be applying 4 days leave from school. 3 days on the 22, 23 and 24 for council retreat and 1 day on the 29th for st' john camp.** thous left @ 12:46:00 PM **
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Saturday, November 05, 2005目前。 这怎会让我心纷乱如麻
又怎会让我时空没办法
你的眼睛变成了沙漠
冷冷得找不到温柔的线索
我不会连走开都不懂
浪漫的日子像一场梦
爱你不是要听你感谢我
放手就我四分五裂
我是个不能让你开心的小丑
在抱你一次
你是那么的诚实
温柔的发丝
心跳的拍子
伤口不会痛
痛的是空虚生活
城堡里无尽的思念围绕
实在太承重难承受
痛苦在我胸口狠狠的刺
一切让我失去了理智
救救 我就要沦毁
给我力量
想你的星空下 何时在闪耀？
请让时间再倒流不停的反复
下个交叉点
无论多遥远
我都在守着你
受伤的翅旁
总有一天会慢慢便好
你就是那疗法
对了
大哥今天寄了一个testimonial给我
哈哈 在印尼不知怎样了
他今年大学毕业
还有堂妹
昨天也寄了email给我
在欧洲不知怎样了
听说趟地读书了
哈哈
今天太多犹豫了
可爱的你要加油了** thous left @ 12:41:00 PM **
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Friday, November 04, 2005Day. the ability to feel is gone. the distress is present but everything just became too numb.
i also dont know what, in actuality it means now. i just want to pretend that i know nothing so i totally enjoy myself when i practice my habit.
but why all this happenings was not known to me. but i pray for all this to fade off and be put behind for the walk to carry on.
at least something cheer me up so much today. the thing that i realise on my phone. i cant stop smiling when i see it.
yesterday night made me almost collapse today. i became too weak that i had to snooze for awhile in studio today.
a soul is no solitary, for another is ever there for it. faith is in me.
waa, i am really exhuasted. i need more rest.
哼着这首旋律 请多爱我一天
有你和我的泪水 穿越光年
而我就只要 和你永远不说再见
听我在耳边说出来的温柔 一直到最后
好想你 babe 请放手追寻
好想你 babe 爱无懈可击
我相信思念坚定 在某年某月某一天有疯狂的记忆
好想你 babe 守护着爱情
好想你 babe 故事在继续
在这里 我只想说 这是唯一给你的歌曲
我听见天是在唱歌 跨过爱情半径
只有我在这里 第二次爱上你** thous left @ 1:33:00 PM **
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Thursday, November 03, 2005Think. 隔天4.56am
也该为昨天做个结论了。那是好累，好漫长的一天啊。好多的跑步，一次过都把力量狠狠地用完。累了也就不会想太多了。但我想再还没睡！天啊。我又回到夜猫子的生活了。
收获和多。跑了两条镇，十几多条街，要死掉了。那也无所谓。也没人会为我牵挂，我还在乎什么呢。过后又大吃大喝。一切都不太好。至少死了，上面有晶晶陪着我。
我就不相信命运的玩弄，我会继续坚持下去的！我不会放手的！
7.03pm
地狱天使。而落出最真诚的第一滴。我怪我不争气。
7.03pm
请别这样对待我。我好难过。好难受。
6.53pm
破裂的碎片把我割得好痛！崩溃了。
6.43pm
事实是凄凉的。我的心也开始下雪了。我无法面对自己。心如镜子破裂撒到满地都是。为什么要这样对我。是我的情带不出我的意吗？请别这样对待我。是我错了吗？
6.30pm
一切都好多了。也放下心理的一大块石头了。就说了嘛，我想太多了啦。谢谢你的确保，安慰了我许多。至少我知道一切不是关于我。虽说烦恼是你的但别把所有都分割得太清楚吧。担心毕竟还是存在的。要不然情何在？
5.30pm
刚跑步回来。就痛恨的跑吧！也可以仔细想想东西。差点没命，断气。-_-" 想过了。结论我相信是我太多犹豫了。一切应该没事吧。对不对？请告诉我‘对’！我差点又多心了。劝服自己没事吧！！！
3.45pm
我的心越跳越快。我快窒息了。呼吸不了。喊天。指点我吧！求求你。。。我突然觉得好渺小。我好害怕。
2.45pm
哦。几乎崩溃了啦。爆炸了啦。不要再模糊了吧。别让我在寒冷了卖火柴。
算了。
说些别的吧。
啦啦啦~
我 心中的自己 每一秒 都愿意
为爱放手去追寻 用心去珍惜
世间万千的变幻 爱把有情的人分两段
心诺知道心灵的方向 哪怕不能够朝夕相伴
我却如此愿意 竟然愿意
用白天 用黑夜 用思念 拥着你
让爱固定下来 我不会永远青春可爱
我的美丽要你的温柔 帮我保留下来
让爱固定下来 我不要不要和你分开
我不要爱一再一再彩排~
我又有希望了。我就期望着！
别再让困扰纠缠着，就祈祷你快乐就好了。
目前心情就是三百六十度的转变。你的悲伤也是属于我的。我感觉得到。我越是挂念，就越是担心。就为情，让我与你分担吧，好吗。你不也曾说过。
就在我希望点燃了，让他猛烧着，别让他熄灭了好吗。其实我想你一分一秒。再说一次。‘世间万千的变幻，爱把有情的人分两段，心诺知道心灵的方向，哪怕不能够朝夕相伴’。犹豫不决的才得了。
当你快乐，请来找我，和我一起。
但你难过，请来找我，让我陪你。
你快乐所以我开心。** thous left @ 12:00:00 AM **
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Wednesday, November 02, 2005Confusion. its school day again. site visiting and i was so blur through out. need to measure this and that. then all my nots and things i have jotted down are all in a mess. hmptf.
then went to brand design class. phew~ i was almost late. could not find the block. *excuses* but first lesson was a little boring and i dont know people in my class cos i am in a group with vanice and gang.
anyway, the assignments seems tough and i wonder i can outwit the rest of my classmates. by they way, did i mention that i seemed to be the only year 1 there! oh my gosh! but they dont really look like designers anyway, so i am quite confident to do well. but again, i shall not judge people by its cover. who knows they are all top designers. lol. *no way mann!*
realised they happenings since primer 4 seems to have carried on till now. the case is very clear cut. but in this clear cut line, it is also not too obvious. quite confusing though. sadly, i am stucked in between. monday i was with one group and today at the other group. its really difficult to choose where to be as all are people close to me. but why like this? cant all sit down together? why must there be this 'not obvious' seperation?
oh, i am getting more confusing now. i see, i read, i think. my thoughts does not seems to get me anywhere. i am left somewhere down there in the air. too blur. now i t seems like i am starting to asume this and that. but of course i hope all that negative things i have asumed is not what it meant to be. for now and the coming everyday, i just know i want to live it like now. for all i know, i want now to carry on. so i think lesser too, for i believe, i trust! in my view, perhaps should not ponder this and that or even about the past. let bygones be bygones. should stop, think (a little only), and move on. but of course sometimes do reminisce.
i want to stop moving on for now. too many such thinkings are obstructing me from moving forward. sometimes i do need to be ensured. but like now, i know its alright because, i believe!** thous left @ 1:23:00 AM **
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Tuesday, November 01, 2005School. oh my got. that day was the first day of school starting of semester 2. on that day already received the primer 5 design process schedule and all the stuffs that needs to be done all the way till end of project which is somewhere near next year feburary!
but that day was quite free as there is nothing much. no lecture for theory of design, interior technology and language communication skills. phew~ watched a movie for this primer 5 and the two character in the movie will be my client. and i am supposed to design a living environment for them. oh dear. the real stuffs just started.
then had lots of free time all the way till LC lessons. nothing much to do. but no worries cos i am thinking, other than the project, also ke ai de ni. hee.
aiya. school day, then holiday, then school day, then holiday, then school day, then weekends le. lame. but i sure spent my day wisely being with the bestest human on earth. ...
tomorrow is tutorial! no lecture! i hope its a free free day! then i got to go for my new module, BRAND DESIGN! wow. sounds cool right! and my lecturer looks so cute and funny. hahaha. i am laughing. *smells sarcasm* hee. then i will find excuses to... erh herm. hee.
世界在转动，从不分那夜明。
时间在飘浮，从不为谁停留。
朋友在周围，从不忘记有我。
有了你我，日子都不觉得难过。
当你快乐，请来找我，和我一起。
但你难过，请来找我，让我陪你。
你快乐所以我开心。** thous left @ 1:08:00 AM **
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