Tuesday, November 08, 2005
She.

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oh my god. my head hurts terribly today. very very painful. i just feels like i am breaking.

well, perhaps it is due to my wisdom tooth, i think it is growing, therefore the pain. and another factor might be i am facing TOO MUCH STRESS WITH MY PROJECTS.

initially i thought i am on track and on time and everyone is doing stuff at the same speed, good timing. but who knows, we may seem to be behind time now. because today there is two lecture, then so may stuffs are taught at one go. then it is all related to my project and whatever paperwork that is expected of us. so with so many new things adding to my load today, i think i will suffer on friday's pin-up. just too much.

next is that my eyes are a little swollen. maybe because of sunday la. then my eyes perhaps a little infected. -_-" well. oh well.

was watching teevee. stairways to heaven. well. i triggers some thoughts in me. made me now super duper sad. love makes one willing to sacrifies for the other one, even if it means to end his life. how noble, yea. hmmm, i dont know if i have the courage to do that. it depends who is that personthat worth me dying for. *hehe serious alright!* i suddenly thought of jin jin and the accident. well, two years have past but the feeling of pain, sad and lost are still fresh in me.

i kept on remembering that i am supposed to go home with her, but due to that stupid meeting, or perhaps stupid me suddenly cannot go with her, so... till now i still think if i went with her, she would not pay her life. maybe it would be me. but i thought it through, also for years le, if what happened really can be authored, i would rather it be me. firm 'yes' i say. they are just too unfair to her. i am sure her life will be much more beautiful than me.

there are times i wish she can take me with her. to her place now, with no fears at all. a place where my soul will forever be at peace. but she never give me a reply. now i see her in my dreams again, sometimes i have no face to see her as i felt sorry and some other stuff. but i will always tell her to be happi, and that she must find me or let me find her. but she cannot be like before. i dont know why.

till now, i still dont know her whereabouts. *fyi* she no longer stays in yishun. oh, where is her?

aiya. skip this le la. i feel terribly and lousy now. jerk you, yilong.

thank you so much till now. i really thank you soooo much. you made my life more colourful. i will still stand strong and persist. do well for your studies now! all the best and will always be behind you! jia you!

alright, i better get back to my work le.

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